my crying confession...

I have to admit that I have been the biggest cry baby the past couple of weeks knowing that Tatum is starting kindergarten tomorrow. I can't help but get tears in my eyes. Well, a lot more than just tears. I have been sobbing my eyes out. Anyway, when I think about kindergarten, I keep getting flashbacks of Tatum in her little bunny slippers with her hair in tiny little pigtails. I never really realized how hard it would be to let her go to school. I know some of you may think Im crazy or that I should be excited about having her gone, but Im not.  I wish kindergarten was only half days and only three or four days a week here. Its not though. Its five days a week from 7:50-3:00. Thats a long day! What am I going to do with just Seth? How am I going to entertain him for that long. I know I will hear, "where's sister" all day long.  He already gets upset when she is gone at a friends house for a playdate. Tate is my little helper. She always keeps Seth busy when we are at the grocery store, in the car, or just hanging out at home.
I know that after tomorrow, or the next few days, I will probably be loving the time I have with Seth and even the time I will have to get projects done while Seth is napping. However, I am dreading tomorrow! I can't let the tears come tomorrow morning until Tate is in the school, right? Do I wear a hat that I can slide down when I feel the tear ducts turn on? My friend was telling me about Dr. Phil's wife and how she wrote a book about whether or not you should let your children see you cry...if its healthy or not for your children? I say its o.k. in some situations, but I don't want Tate to see me cry tomorrow. I need to be super excited and strong for her so she walks in there tomorrow knowing she is going to have a blast meeting new friends and learning new things.
There are a bunch of my friends that have their oldest girl/boy starting school tomorrow as well. I am so glad I am not the only one and I am so glad to see them sad as well. (I know, sounds mean right, but you know what I mean.) One of my cute friends gave us moms with our first kids starting school some cute tissue with a card that read, "just incase the first day of school brings tears. you can wipe them in style." Thank you Whitney...I will be using that whole pack tomorrow!
One of the rules of kindergarten is that you drop them off at the door and watch them walk in. They want them to become independent, etc., blah.
Anyway, another one of our cute friends, Brooke, gave us moms this poem. It nails it right on the dot....

We Left You at the Door

We took you down to school today.
You’re just beginning now.
Although this year you’re five years old,
You seem so young, somehow!
We didn’t take you all the way,
For we’d been told before
“Don’t go into his room with him,
Just leave him at the door.”

Up to this time we’ve always gone
Together everywhere.
And we have had a lot of fun
While traveling here and there;
But I well knew before it came,
We’re parted more and more;
So many times we’ll stand outside
And leave you at the door.

You’re growing up so very fast
It’s hard to keep in step;
The fact of changing years is hard
For parents to accept.
You’ll have to walk your path alone 
No matter what’s in store.
We’ll bring you up to life’s classroom,
Then leave you at the door.

While you were ours these tender years,
We treasured every day
Full knowing that the time would come
When you would go your way.
And though this love will still remain
Within the heart’s deep core,
Our eyes will sting to see you go—
And leave us at the door!




If anyone figures out how to freeze time please let me know. It goes by too dang fast. Tate has her clothes set out for tomorrow and her backpack ready to go. The only thing not ready is me to let her go! Good luck to all you moms out there taking your kids to school.
Tomorrow will be a good day. I will be taking Tate to school, hold seth in the car hugging him to death while I use my stylin tissues, go shove my face with yummy texas donuts with some friends, and then I have a lunch date with Tatum at her school cafeteria!